Who or what can actually survive in the wilderness? I asked myself that while studying the journey of Moses and the Exodus of the Israelites. I’m not Moses or leading a nation, but I understand living in wild moments that seem out of control.
Or maybe,I am like Moses, leading Gods people (my kids) through this culture and time while secretly battling my own struggles and insecurities. If I”m honest, it’s a daily battle between normal and crazy. Or amazing and mediocre. I sit and waiver on the last 40 years of life. Yikes! Scary to even write. This summer, God gave me a great verse to cling to as I look at the life of Moses again. Yes, I know what your thinking, why old gray haired Moses agin? Well because he represents the broken, foul, insecure, mannish, murderous soul in all of us.
“The Lord your God has blessed you in all the work of your hands. He has watched over your journey through this vast wilderness. These forty years the Lord your God has been with you, and you have not lacked anything.” Deuteronomy 2:7 NIV
As I spend quiet time with God in his word, he unlocked this truth in my life. No matter the season of joy or pain, good or bad, he was there. I have lacked nothing. He has been here, even when I could not feel him. He never left me to myself, the darkest wild ever, is being left alone to “Me”. I make excuses and blame others, but the truth is; He always fortified whatever I put my mind and heart to, the things that pleased him. I’m not referencing my Taco Tuesday or make overs. God never leaves! God asked me in the middle of my pity party “What have you lacked”? I rattled off one lousy answer and he replied again “What have you lacked”? In my humble cry, I replied “nothing”. In every season of my life, especially the Wilderness, I lacked nothing in him. It may have felt like famine, but we were full. It may have felt like isolation, but I was covered in love. It may have felt like defeat, but it was victory all around me. God is not a God who schedules appointments, he’s present, powerful, and loving. Even when you can’t wrap your mind or soul around that truth, you lack nothing. His children, lack nothing. Make your list out today, and thank him that you lack nothing. He’s good and faithful to provide all that we need, even when we don’t see it or feel it.