Kill Ants Not Souls
Delays, Dead Ants, and Ducking
Poor little ant family.
The tragic death of the little creatures on the earth I probably killed this morning, while driving, or rocket shipping three kids to school. Fridays are supposed to be my days of reflection, processing, cruising, studying, and long pauses over coffee. The problem with this is, when others don’t adhere to that friday routine. My morning of peace was interrupted again by another schedule delay.
No Bra, smeared eyeliner, and stale coffee. That’s how you will find me speeding (safely in Jesus name). Hoping to get everyone to school on time, and then back to my desk so I can get my studies done. I realize that life’s interruptions and delays are opportunities to kill unwanted ants.
It’s an opportunity to see what your really made of, what you are capable of (not just murder,) and your strength. The curve balls will come……………and come? Will you duck or swing? I’m going to start swinging, even if it is in the air, and the ball hit’s me in the head.
For the last year, my morning and life routines have been interrupted by delays I can’t control. Instead of pouting, throwing tantrums like I normally do. I figured out a way to kill ants and not peoples souls. Instead of lashing out, I’m asking God to show me purpose and the value in it all, like the Apostle Paul. Paul wrote most of the New Testament from a jail cell. I’m not suggesting going to jail, but if you do, use your gifting’s to grow and glorify God. Sighs and Ponders.
Unlike Paul, I never want to do my best writing in jail. Even though I have been real close to a “Dear Momma” letter from jail………
Do I focus on my weakness or my strengths? Do I accept that life’s circumstances are constantly changing and I have no control over that?
Instead of trying to keep a great routine of structure and fast moving children. I’m open to the fact that any given day the routine can and will be interrupted by delays, disruptions, or dead ants.
There is strength in releasing the need to control every aspect of our daily lives, there is power in finding God in the midst of it all. Normally when I don’t get my way, or life gets overwhelming, I loose it and start on the manipulative defense or evil offense, it’s time to draw up new plays and ways around what we can’t control or keep in check.
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (2 Cor 12:9)